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Yesterday, I missed her…

Yesterday, July 2nd, was the day I’ve missed her. Not that I never missed her before. There are days that she comes more to my thoughts than usual, but yesterday was different. Yesterday it was her day. From start to finish, it was all about her. I’ve never cried so many times for such simple reasons before. I’ve never felt like talking this much to her, after the break up, as much as I wanted yesterday. Charlie Puth was a big part of my day, because “We Don’t Talk Anymore” was the song I’ve heard the most all day. Oh, yeah, listening to Lorde is being so hard to me. Melodrama is an album that hits me like a sharp spear.

Oh God, I’ve published it by mistake before finish writing it.

Continuing, living without you is the hardest thing ever. I used to hate you after your father made me believe that you were suing me, but after I discovered the real story, a wave of positive thoughts about you hit me. It was refreshing at first, but I’ve drowned. It hurted. It felt like crying underwater. The oxygen was coming out, and water was coming in.

I forgot your voice. I wanna die. I can only remember your face if I remember of certain moments of our lives. I forgot your smell. Your touch. U. I completely forgot what is putting you to bed, and waking up to talk with you. I forgot how it is to run home after school or work, to talk with you. Sometimes I’ve even called you while I was on my way back home, because I couldn’t wait. I forgot.

I wanna hear you. I wanna look at your face. I wanna kiss you. I wanna hug you. I really wanna hug you. I want you hug you so much. I wanna lay down in bed naked, feeling my warm body contrast with the cold of yours. I wanna touch our feets together. I want to kiss you good morning. I wanna sing you good night. I wanna be with you.

I miss you. A lot.

Yesterday, I realized… I love you.

Sincerely,

Mabo

The Llama Show – Day 7959

Good Morning, if you may.

As you know, my name is Llama, at least my internet name. I plan on returning to my Truman Show, which is this blog, and I’ll try to post more and more. I’m slowly trying to fix the mess that is around my life at the moment. And I should start doing it by finally making the festival announcements that needed to be done a couple months ago, on my short film’s Facebook page.

Speaking of Truman Show, I’ve recently (last night) watched The Truman Show for the first time and what a fucking fantastic film! Pardon my language. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Also, I took a look at Martha Marcy May Marlene, which is surprisingly great. Really uneasy and nerve-racking, BUT it does its job more than well.

I would give The Truman Show a round 90 and Martha Marcy May Marlene a 77. I’ll make reviews in the future, if I don’t abandon this again.

Being honest is the first step to fix everything, isn’t it?

Thanks for tuning in, and I’ll see you later!

Adios! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Nostalgic Trap

Howdy,

Right now it is 5h30 in the morning, and guess who is still awake and probably will waste his Sunday Morning? Yeah, you guessed right, Peter Panda (the one from Vin Diesel’s babysitter film). But you probably forgot that Peter Panda even existed, huh?

Jokes apart, yes, I am still awake, and the reason is that I got stuck in a Nostalgic Trap. What is a Nostalgic Trap? It is when you see something that reminds you of a really good/fun part of your life, and them it leads you to another them, that leads you to another things and it never stops.

And now the question is: What is my Nostalgic Trap? Old Free Step videos. Why? When I was a teenager, I used to dance Free Step, which actually, was the thing that helped me make friends when I moved to Rio de Janeiro (when I was around 15), and at the time, making Free Step videos was the coolest thing between this group of people. I have over 15 videos of me dancing it. But how did I even remember all of this on a random Saturday evening? Easy! There is a Facebook page that re-uploads old Free Step videos, and one of them appeared on my timeline, which lead me to another video, of a guy who used a song I’ve used in one of my videos… and there I went for almost 2h30!

I’m exhausted, sad and mad at the same time. I truly wish I could enjoy more, right now it seems that I going through a really hard phase, and I now that I won’t have the same type of fun that I used to when I was younger. It kinda makes me sad.

And to complete, there is the fact that me and my ex-Brazilian Llamarina split up, so I’m alone in my journey again.

Alone. Broke. Unmotivated.

Please, don’t think I’m one of this crazy suicidal Tumblr kids, I’m just going through a hard phase right now, and until things get better, it will be hard.

And as usual, last but not least, if you’re reading this, it means that you read some of the things that I needed to get out of my chest and that means a lot, even if I don’t have a clue of who you are!

See you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Cancelled Plans

Howdy,

It’s been a while… again! I know!

But let’s go right into my day: Yesterday I went to the movie theater to watch Hardcore Henry, which I will be reviewing soon. It kinda sucked, but nothing tooย bad to piss me off. And then we had a party at night, which moved to today, due to location problems, and 2 hours before the whole thing today, BOOM, it got cancelled. So here I am, Saturday night, alone, and broke, not going anywhere.

Probably I’ll watch some The Walking Dead and kill Season 2.

Oh, yeah, there is another problem!!! I ran out of mustard and as stated before, I’m broke, and until Monday, I won’t be able to afford mustard! How will I make Mayo-and-Mustard Chicken Sandwiches? My fat llama body craves for this sandwich… ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

And last, but not least, I will be also reviewing Weezer’s White Album this week! But today, unfortunately, it’s time to chill.

See you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Cards Against Llamanity

Howdy,

Good night! Today, I’ve finally released my stress going out with some llamas. Oh yeah, my fur looks nice now. So, Mr. Llama was on point.

We went to a friends finals of his hockey regional team, but they loss. We went to a nice pub, we drank, and we played a lot of Cards Against Humanity. I lost to this same friend by only one point. He got 15, I got 14. :C

I enjoy going out with them, even though, sometimes, I feel less welcome than everybody. Maybe it is just me. I’m used to how warm Brazilian people are, and how much better I was at talking, or making jokes, because of the small, but significant language barrier I have to go through.

At least I had a good April Fools’. It could be better? Yes, but it also could be worse, so I can’t complain.

See you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Favor March is taking all my energy!

Howdy,

Finally I’m starting the last project of Favor March, even though we are already in April.

So Favor March included 5 music videos, and I already did 4! Woo-hoo!

And tomorrow we start the last one. Today I need to sleep reaaaaaaaally early, to have enough energy. A weekend with two 12-hour shoots + 1 hour of lunch on each.

But it needs to be done. The crew is good. The cast ย too. And when it ends, I’ll be able to come back to my Llama Blogger life!

See you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Photoshop King

Howdy,

Today is the day I’m going to fix my llama fur, and it’s been months that I don’t do that, so, I’m pretty excited!

Oh, and I almost forgot to show you… A couple days ago, my beautiful Brazillian Llamarina, needed some help with her college stuff, and to influence her, I decided to do the same thing. She needed to do 4 covers for a fictional magazine, and while she was doing it, I did three myself.

(Click on them to see it in full resolution)

Pretty good, huh? I’m really proud of myself.

So, now it’s time to get ready, because the place Mr. Llama is going is fancy!

I’ll see you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’m back babies!

Howdy!

I know I messed up disappearing for almost four days, but I had my reasons. I felt that I had nothing good to write about, even though I still had Zootopia’s review, The Mysterious Book story and a little bit more.

But today was the day I saw something that made me come here and write stuff for the blog. Expect to read a review about 10 Cloverfield Lane soon. Probably in some hours. There is some stuff I need to take out of my chest.

So, keep awake, and you’ll see what I mean.

Oh, for some reason, every time I touch Arena 4 in Clash Royale, I get a 3 to 4 lose-streak, why? At least I finally got the skeleton army, I hope it helps me.

I’ll see you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Part 2 is OVER!

Howdy,

Today is the last day of Favor March part 2! Yay!

I wanted to go to the musicians place again, but I’m afraid it gets too personal too fast.

At least the last location is my house, so I’m chilling amd they shooting what they need. I hope everything keps fine. I had to clean the hell out of it yesterday.

I’m starving, and that kills me that this production is low budget and doesn’t have good food.

I haven’t talked to my Brazilian Llamarina in hours, and it’s killing me. I think she is mad with my absence.

We (the people who are shooting) had a nice discussion on colored hair, when is appropriate to use them or not.

Now it’s time to start wrapping things up!

I’ll see you soon, muchachos! ๐Ÿ˜‰

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