Howdy,

Right now it is 5h30 in the morning, and guess who is still awake and probably will waste his Sunday Morning? Yeah, you guessed right, Peter Panda (the one from Vin Diesel’s babysitter film). But you probably forgot that Peter Panda even existed, huh?

Jokes apart, yes, I am still awake, and the reason is that I got stuck in a Nostalgic Trap. What is a Nostalgic Trap? It is when you see something that reminds you of a really good/fun part of your life, and them it leads you to another them, that leads you to another things and it never stops.

And now the question is: What is my Nostalgic Trap? Old Free Step videos. Why? When I was a teenager, I used to dance Free Step, which actually, was the thing that helped me make friends when I moved to Rio de Janeiro (when I was around 15), and at the time, making Free Step videos was the coolest thing between this group of people. I have over 15 videos of me dancing it. But how did I even remember all of this on a random Saturday evening? Easy! There is a Facebook page that re-uploads old Free Step videos, and one of them appeared on my timeline, which lead me to another video, of a guy who used a song I’ve used in one of my videos… and there I went for almost 2h30!

I’m exhausted, sad and mad at the same time. I truly wish I could enjoy more, right now it seems that I going through a really hard phase, and I now that I won’t have the same type of fun that I used to when I was younger. It kinda makes me sad.

And to complete, there is the fact that me and my ex-Brazilian Llamarina split up, so I’m alone in my journey again.

Alone. Broke. Unmotivated.

Please, don’t think I’m one of this crazy suicidal Tumblr kids, I’m just going through a hard phase right now, and until things get better, it will be hard.

And as usual, last but not least, if you’re reading this, it means that you read some of the things that I needed to get out of my chest and that means a lot, even if I don’t have a clue of who you are!

See you soon, muchachos! 😉

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